it's a COLOURFUL world ♥

2008-12-23T03:18:00.000-08:00

2008-12-16T02:41:00.000-08:00

// Cute is what we aim for - Newport Living

Everyone's a let down

It just depends on how far down they can go

In every circle of friends there's a whore

The one who flirts

And does a little more

But who's to say?

This is a social scene anyway

And everybody wants to explore the new girl

Caught up in her own hard liquor world

But liquor doesn't exist in our world

2008-11-11T02:55:00.000-08:00

Should i go off to TPA school?

sigh..

2008-11-09T02:36:00.000-08:00

//Natasha Bedingfield - I bruise easily

My skin is like a map, of where my heart has been

And I can't hide the marks, but it's not a negative thing

So I let down my guard, drop my defences, down by my clothes

I'm learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me

There's a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree

I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me

Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily.

2008-10-24T07:57:00.000-07:00

i "think" i'm moving.

2008-10-18T21:13:00.000-07:00

" WHEN ARE U GONNA ASK?! "

i cant really remember what i did for the entire week.
it's like "whoosh" and time flies by.
went to old school and 2902 exhibition with damien on friday.
he wasn really interested but he insisted on coming along. ohwell.
then we listened to a talk on architecture photography by this famous german architect.
and Q&A session was a blast. i kept giggling. haha.
this guy kept asking questions and i could tell that the german guy was getting pretty fed up.
damien and i left soon after and we went "home".
he started playing with rayner's game while i was using his mac to browse through pictures.
dinnerdinnerdinner.

sat. another day of BC.
we had to do this i-ask-you-questions-and-you-answer thingy.
i went over and asked christian " Name 3 pretty american actress"
he said in his most innocent and sweet german accent " erm. brad pitt, tom cruise,..."
Nas and i burst out laughing and he just stared at us like "wtf is ur problem"
after that was NPC training.
ARGH. SLAVE.TORTURE.KILLING.BRAINCELLS.

for npc,
60 schools are divided into 5 subcamps.
unluckily 23 eagles has to split :'(
Newtown - Subcamp 5 ( the furthest away and high chances of getting a flood after the rain ) HAHAHA.
NUS High - Subcamp 2 ( nearer to us )
we're in sub camp 1. team 2
together with swisscottage sec, pierce sec, gan eng seng sec, and some others but i cant remember.
our theme is zenzenzen. bamboos and sakura flowers. hahaha.

Nov 6 is coming soon. sigh..

u'll be gone for another 3 damn weeks

fishfishfishfish*
when are u gonna ask?

♥

I LOVE ALL TIME LOW!!

[ currently listening to - Forever The Sickest Kids - I Dont Know About You ]

2008-10-11T06:53:00.000-07:00

/ i'm still regretting

i'm back (:

went for the photography talk&exhibition with damien on friday night.

Chang Chien Chi was shooting back at the audience during the Q&A session.

damien and i couldnt help it but started laughing whenever Chien Chi shot something back at them.

today. hmm. BC. then STARBUCKS (again)

i've been going to starbucks every saturday since the mid of last month ( i think )

it's turning into a "tradition" or habit.

the way the people there act and move, catches my attention.

unique and strange in different ways.

i've been thinking back at something i really regret.

prolly the biggest mistake i've ever done.

i cant believe i didnt hold on to that opportunity.

it just...slipped away. and it's all my fault.

blame me for giving up, blame me for being lazy.

i blame me

[ currently listening to - Rooster - Come get some ]

damn this dodgy life

2008-09-18T00:10:00.000-07:00

i've been waiting...

2008-09-17T05:25:00.000-07:00

' IF YOU CANT ACCEPT ME AT MY WORST,

YOU DONT DESERVE ME AT MY BEST//

i finally understand the way i feel.

HAPPY B'DAY MADELINE ♥

thanks for figuring out the missing word for me lover (:

thanks a lot.

dentist appointment today. the dude said that i'll be able to take off my braces next month!!

yay!! (:

[ the pain is killin me ]

nothing is ever about us.

cause everything is just about YOU YOU & YOU.

YOU PHONY DOUCHE FACE!

SCREW MY LIFE.

2008-09-15T01:32:00.000-07:00

' Does it really have to end?//

i love you hanisha! (:

What has gotten into you my dear? What.fuck. is filled in your brain right now? We've been besties for 6 years and you're angry with me...just because i didnt tell you about that?! I have the rights NOT to tell you in the first place. cause it's my own personal stuff but it's also my fault for not explaining myself. i cant believe that you would actually stay angry because of such a small matter. i didnt know you were this type of guy. even though you're all the way in perth, i've always treated you like my brother. someone who's right beside me eveyday. but i cant belive you're so childish. i always iniciate to make the first talk. but you just ignore everything. i dont want everything to end like this. all the fun and laughter that we shared. especially the one at the hotel lobby. i dont want.. 6 years of friendship...to be gone.. just like that...

fuck my life.

2008-09-13T08:49:00.000-07:00

' SUNSHINE // - saw a rainbow ♠

friday :

the chinese cultural opening thingy was such a bore. the dinner was horrible.

there were these two pri school girls who sat infront of me and qianni. **** them. bitches.

we had to learn : how to make the lucky chinese knots.

: how to play the er hu

: chinese painting

: wu shu

: the theory of chinese green tea.

had my first lesson today. made new friends (:

spent half of my day at the british council.

i was gonna go to the training at first but i couldnt in the end.

i had to attend something. sorry guys....

after that, went over to damien's

watched tv with his mom. arm wrestle with rayner. watched a movie with him. then his dad sent me home (:

rayner is seriously funny. all those weird weird stuff that he does. hahhahahahaha.

around 7 plus, i stood there and watched the sunset. it was B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L.

[ currently listening to - 3 Doors Down - Let Me Go ]

2008-09-11T06:34:00.000-07:00

' we're acting like a fool //

if u think that the problems u're having now is pulling you down, making u upset,changing ur life...

now, look at this..

think and reflect.

then u'll realize that your problems are infinitesimal compared to theirs.

children rights.

the fundamental need of the child is realized and protected.

all children have the rights not be used as a soldier in wars

every child has the rights to have ideas...

the convention rights of a child

2008-09-09T05:47:00.000-07:00

Fuck this world that i dont even bother to give a damn to. fuck everything. my life. the reality. sometimes i feel like i dont wanna belong in this huge ball of mess. i cant find my way out and even if i did, i cant find my way back in. i cant stand it anymore. i cant stand ur bullshitting attitute towards me. if u're having hard times, what about me? i'm human too for fuck's sake. i cant be living in your circle or area all the time. i have my life and i have my own problems too. i really dont have the mood to carry on with all this shit anymore. i screwed up my life. fuck everything. i dont wanna continue living in doubts. i cant take it anymore. all these while i've been putting up with all these. but do u even care? NO! fuck no. of course u dont. cause all u think about is YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU.

2008-09-08T23:31:00.000-07:00

' BLAST //

came back from annual camp at NUS high.

i'm sorry steven. haha. for what happened at the raptors at war. *grin*

right now, sore all over. cant even walk properly. argh.

came home and unpack ( the worst thing about camping trips )

rushed off to singapore indoor stadium.

the concert started off by some lame local band.

they kept singing and singing and everyone couldnt take it anymore.

finally they finished and the lights were turned on again.

waited for about half an hour then everybody started to get impatient.

waited and waited and waited....

the lights were finally turned off and avril ran out.

started off with "girlfriend" and finished the concert with "sk8er boi"

there was one point of the concert when she said ;

"the next song i'm gonna sing is the most important song of my life. this was the hit single when i was 17 years old"

- Complicated -

there were these 2 korean women infront of our row and they kept standing up blocking everyone behind.

so at the end of the concert when everyone threw their light sticks down,

someone threw it at one of the korean woman. hahahah.

i took some videos. post it another time.

was encouraged not to go to school today ( haha? )

serious mental disarray

- it's just another moment of doubts -

[ currently listening to - Good Charlotte - I Just Wanna Live ]

2008-09-04T05:51:00.000-07:00

' i miss you //

went sengkang with damien to meet justin and gerald (:

they are SO cute.

we brought them down to the playground and they just couldnt stop running around.

energetic kids. damien and i were basically worn out by the time we left.

they just kept playing and playing. hahahah.

ANNUAL CAMP

5/9/08 - 7/9/08

AVRIL LAVIGNE'S CONCERT

7/9/08

[ i love you ]

[ currently listening to - Jason Mraz feat Colbie - Lucky ]

2008-09-02T09:36:00.000-07:00

' i love you,

but i hate you too //

i'm happy todayy (:

well...i'm happy. until 12.45 am.

todayyy. went to pasir ris park with ;

hanisha, jomains, zhenghao, mark, dipern, angela, edna, qianyi & wita

bike riding. then white sand.

haha. we played at the arcade for an effing long time. then we took neos.

* note to self - 10 people in 1 photo booth = !@#$@#%

the next reason why i'm happy (:

AVRIL'S CONCERT!!

hahahahahaha. to tell the truth, i'm not a really big fan.

* i hate the song - girlfriend* hahaha. - shuush -

but i still like her. hahahaha.

so....after the last ____ lesson,

damien fetched me from novena and we went home together.

right now, i'm freaking pissed.

and i am officially ANGRY.

i've never been so mad or pissed at someone before.

even so, the longest it can last is prolly 5 mins.

_____ , ARGH!

i love you, but I HATE YOU!!

****! ****! ****! ****!!!!!!!!

help me...

somebody.

anybody.

please.

[currently listening to - Fort minor - Where'd you go ]

2008-09-01T09:13:00.000-07:00

' friday's newpaper ♥ //

-6 in the evening at MacRitchie Reservoir-

i love the sky. just as how much i love you (:

30.08.08 ( saturday )

npc training ,

cook 3 (:

CAMPFIRE!

spent the morning with daddyyyy

went for the injection today. hahaha.

then left for braddell at 2 (:

spent the whole afternoon at SPH with damien.

study study study.

hahaha.

we went MacRitchie after that.

from 6-8 plus. hahahaha.

the sky was B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L.

the shade of the perfect blue sky made my heart skip a beat.

i'm in love with a photographer.

- check him out on friday's newspaper -

[ taim i' ngra leat ]

♥

SHANTI IS BACK FROM SPAIN!

i'm gonna invade the hotel soon. hehehe

[ currently listening to - Faber Drive - Second Chance ]

2008-08-29T07:45:00.000-07:00

' once again just for me? //

happy teacher's dayyyyy (:

after went to queensway, ikea and anchorpoint with lover and jomains [ ♥ ]

had lunch at secret recipe.

fun fun fun funnnnn (:

second half of the day was with someone special (:

went to changi airport to look at planes.

then talked & talked & talked.

after that we had dinner at changi,

took a double decker bus from eunos

( bus 93, no aircon, open window, DAMN windy)

- best bus ride ever -

the wind was soooo _____ ( cant find a word to describe)

[ Ik hou van jou!! ]

i cant wait to go back to taiwan.

miss my other half of the family there. and the milktea! hahah

i wanna go backkkk!

2008-08-28T03:40:00.000-07:00

' RUN BABY RUN//

tmr and tmr and tmr and tmr...

just feel like screaming, but not at you.

it hurts so much. but i just dont know what...

27.08.08

had my interview (:

so glad it's over. hahah.

i scored 85 for the paper test. and 7/10 for the interview.

i got into Proficiency (: yay. haha.

the teachers are all eurasians.

when they pronounced those korean/chinese names, i was laughing like [FTW]

today.

1. Plain White Ts' Music

2. Starbucks.

3. Crimson Red

4. Soft Pillow (:

[currently listening to - Vanessa Hudgens - Say Ok ]

2008-08-25T05:28:00.000-07:00

' i'll remember //
faith & trust. dont worry.

- this picture is from a special someone -

specially taken. from sri lanka.

to meliza :
it's the 25th already.
i didnt receive any news.
i'm sorry lover. bad news.
but dont be upset. at least we put in our effort already.
(:
dont cry k? we'll try again next time. ily (:

27th
27th
27th!!
is coming. nearer and nearer and nearer.
my INTERVIEW!
i'm not gonna screw it. i better not.

- You held my hand, as we ran in the rain -

[ currently listening to - Emmy Rossum - Slow me down ]

2008-08-24T07:23:00.000-07:00

' it's freakin the crap outta me //

i want the blue sky. please stop raining..

had my study date with 2 very special people today (:
i love them both a lot a lot a lot a lot
it was raining non stop today. so i sent ____ down first then i walked to the mrt station with _____
hahahahhahahh.

this part of the post is for a special someone:

DUDE! WAKE THE HELL UP.

i aint gonna leave. i'll be ur good friend. now and ALWAYS.

dont worry. i promise you. i dont want our friendship to end.

- NOTHING IS GONNA CHANGE -

i swear.

Do you ever think when your all alone

All that we can be, where this thing can go

Am I crazy or falling in love

Is it real or just another crush

Do you catch a breath when I look at you

Are you holding back, like the way I do

Cuz I try and try to walk away,

But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away

[ David Archuleta ]

[ currently listening to - 南拳妈妈 - 香草把噗 ]

2008-08-23T06:29:00.000-07:00

' how should i tell you? //

the words just refuse to come out.

[ I LOVE THE CLOUDY SKY ]

traininggggg todayyyyy (:
[ i saw mr-i-have-a-big-mouth-and-my-brain-is-the-size-of-a-raisin ] *VOMIT*
it was raining non stop today. kinda sad. cause without sunshine, adrian has no brains xD
we started at 2.45. new town did theirs in the rain.
nus high did theirs indoors together with us.
-DAMN tiring-.
our shoe rack was shaped like a temple. hahaha. everybody was like [ WTH? ]
haha. but our clothes line was freaking awesome. it can turn! hahahah.
after that we had to tear apart everything.
we'll be doing the same thing again week. sigh...
when i went to put the poles back,
truman was soaking wet and he said to me " hey. you look dry. give me a hug!"

later that night, i was trying to convince nicholas that he's not old. hahah.
he's only 4 days older then me and he made it seems like its 4 years. TSKTSK.

i've been very obsessed with clouds lately.
CLOUDS CLOUDS CLOUDS CLOUDS

- so beautiful.

[ & ]

TMR (:

Lover, MONDAYYYY. 25th 25th 25th 25th!

Wendy, WEDNESDAY 27th 27th 27th 27th!!!

[ currently listening to - David Archuleta - Crush ]

2008-08-22T07:51:00.000-07:00

' SMILE = FACADE //
i wanna stop putting one on. but i just cant.

i wanna find my road to happiness.

after school we had NPC training...all the itchy strings and endless ideas.
i prolly screwed hist test today.
25th is coming closer & closer. ekk. and 27th is scaring the crap outta me.

went off to chinatown to meet damien, edna and roger after training.
we had dinner then watched the fireworks (:
my sister said that it was better then the NDP's fireworks. hahahaha.

you shouldnt have asked me what's wrong. cause you should know that i just wont say anything.
"are you upset?" you asked. but you should've known it yourself.
i'm trying my best. i really am. putting on a facade is not as easy as it seems.
i'm happy on the outside. but it's killing me on the inside.

[ Je t'aime ]

[ currently listening to - One Republic - All Fall Down ]

2008-08-21T01:18:00.000-07:00

' sometimes i wish //

i dont know what it means anymore,

you're back (:

but sometimes i wished that you didnt come back at all.

today ben said to bryan " i cant believe i have a son like you "

ben's theory : bryan was dumped beside the rubbish bin and someone adopted him and put into the girl's home. In one year, the population in the girl's home doubled. Guess why? xD

i didnt have ANY peace on the way back from school today. ARGH.

Koh guangyi, u're SO gonna die man.

lets see....

friday : hist test, willy's training & dinner d8

saturday : hk training

sunday: study date with hannah

monday : maths test? RESULTS!!! ( lover, lets pray hard )

tuesday : teacher's day rehersal

wednesday : the biggest and the most important day of my life. the INTERVIEW!!

// 我爱你这句话秘密了整个炎夏

那束玫瑰或许会悄悄的告诉她

麻雀在庭院嘻闹盛开的乔治亚

用爱情最羞涩的文法//

[ currently listening to - 南拳妈妈 - 悄悄告诉她 ]

2008-08-20T05:55:00.000-07:00

'TOMORROW/

michael phelps is HOT (:

//tomorrow!

i cant believe i survived these 11 days.

i'm so proud of myself.

cant wait to see the photos you've taken in SL xD

[ & ]

Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness

Comes creeping on so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted

Webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

And hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

Stop this pain tonight

hanisha got me addicted (:

[ currently listening to - Blink 182 - I Miss You ]

2008-08-16T04:49:00.000-07:00

' 4 FOUR days + 1 DAY/
gone for so long , so near yet so far....

this picture is for someone "VERY" special.

it says A LOT about you dude.

so i'm very honoured to spent my fcuking time here to blog about this "special" someone

this is gonna be very mean but....ohwells.

To: Mr.i-have-a-huge-fucking-mouth-and-my-brain-the-size-of-a-rasin,

!@#$%^&*!

GO GET A LIFE DUDE! what's ur fucking problem?!

all u think about are hot girls, hot girls and more hot girls.

seriously i think everybody wanna PUKE when u talk.

on the behalf of our -----, we advice that you should get a plastic surgery and be a female.

so you can get into an all girl's school and drool ALL DAY LONG. like we would even give a damn.

and when u're on the street and if u spot a hot girl, RUN and HIDE behind the nearest fire hydrant k?

cause u've caused enough people to vomit to death already.

i'm fedup with ALL your bullshitting.

[NOBODY LIKES YOU ARSEFACE!]

so we'll donate you some money and go buy urself a new face and life ok?

*cough*

wow. i've said everything that i can already.

feel so much better now.

jocille definately knows who i'm talknig about

stella might get a clue who it is. hahaha (:

today was hiking dayyy [:

5 hours of non stop walking. up & down. left to right.

patrol 3. nicholas incharge. or rather u say swift chivron. lol.

hmm. ended up at hortpark.

npc and annual camp briefing.

damnit. gonna spent 3 days 2 nights looking at that arseface.

gonna prepare a bucket when i go. just in case. hmmm.

hope Mr Arseface is NOT going to the nationals.

i dont wanna spent another 5 days 4 nights vomiting.

4+1.

u just had to tell me in the morning.

it ruined everything.

♥

[ currently listening to - Secondhand Serenade - Your Call ]

2008-08-15T00:04:00.000-07:00

' 5 FIVE days /
dark blue, dark blue (:

cloudy wonderland (:

how nice if such a place existed.

looking at every cloud that floats by everyday....

no worries, ( hmm... except the part about dropping down).

[in ur dreams wendy]...

science class was [ LOL ]

hanisha and i spent the entire lesson writing stupid stuff about [ ? ]

we're EXPENDING our vocab. that's all (:

HAHAHAHAH.

received a mail from miss emma myatt yesterday (:

currently in scotland. but they're planning to move soon.

visit africa in a caravan. how nice (:

the last thing she said in the letter was:

" Remember if you ever want a place to stay when you visit Europe, you'll be very welcome, even if it's in ten years!! "

[i will indeed!] hahahaha (:

&

[ currently listening to - Katy Perry - I Kissed A Girl ]

2008-08-14T01:50:00.000-07:00

' 6 SIX days/

2008-08-13T02:33:00.000-07:00

' 7 SEVEN days /
shine, shine, shine on.

delicate as it is. beautiful as it seems.

it aint growing back.

these few days has been a dragggg.

i've no idea what's going on.

i need to get started on that FREAKING interview.

i've not even practiced a single word.

maths class was $@#%@%#$ today.

i HATE BEN! i HATE BEN! i HATE BEN! i HATE BEN!

I HATE BEN!!!!!!

*choke him to death*

#$@%#$%!!!!!

[&]

Kill the messenger

I swear it's not me

It's just someone I used to know

[currently listening to - Jack's Mannequin - Dark Blue ]

2008-08-11T00:47:00.000-07:00

' 9 Nine days/
think well. think hard.

------, this is SO you dude.

a freaking dinosaur stamping on EVERYTHING,

not caring about the damage u've caused.

2008-08-10T12:33:00.000-07:00

' i ll be waiting /

10 days. but it seems like forever.

I'm tired of being all alone,

and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home.

[♥]

woke up super duper early this morning.

just to sent someone off from changi.

damn sleepy.

u wanted me to be there. so there i was.

but u just treated me like i was invisible

there's no point treating me like this.

it feels like CRAP.

pure douche.

why cant u just open ur eyes to see what u've crashed over while u were blind-folded?

why do u have to just TRAMP over EVERYTHING?!

just like a fucking dinosaur.

[ i shouldnt have been to harsh.

my bad.

but sorry doesnt change anything ]

thanks Nicolas,

[ maybe the ponies and powerpuff girls does work after all ]

Nic: " hey. barker guys HAVE their sensitive side ok."

HAHAHAHAHAHA. (:

I'll miss you ♥

[ 10 days ]

2008-08-08T20:22:00.000-07:00

' SMILE, MY LOVE /

went out with damien yesterday.
he brought roger and ( forgot what's his name ) along.
all the way at Kovan.
it was really fun. cause they kept making crappy jokes.
then we went to SRJC. cause damien wanted to pass something to his friend.
when lover called, they asked if it was my girlfriend.
then they started having this crappy talk about who being lesbians.

HAHAHAHAHAAH.

u're gonna be going soon.

10 longg dayyyss.

i'll really miss you.

[ ♥ ]

2008-08-07T04:44:00.000-07:00

' the bubbles i love/
what would i do without you,

made a HUGE mess with the bubble soap today.

hahaha. in the mood i guess (:

ndp stuff tmr. lunch with D&R tmr. sigh.

i was kinda in the sensitive mood today.

having those awful flashbacks.

i just cant get rid of them. ahhh.

i need a doctor. seriously.

2008-08-06T06:12:00.000-07:00

'each day i hope for more/

i really like these pictures.

especially the 2nd one.

it makes me happy, somehow.

just a rainbow in the sky.

although it IS kinda fake.

hahahaha. but still.... (:

i'll be making my I.C tmr [:

officially 15!

i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate you ~~wendy deneris zhang!~~

[ & ]

it's just a RAINBOW in the sky (:

2008-08-05T04:48:00.000-07:00

' there's nothing like old times/

i swear i'm right. believe me.

[ Love for Dashboard Confession ]

woke up with a freaking awful gestric this morning. damnit.

cold sweat, vomited, almost fainted.

i knew one day it would come back.

worst then ever.

i still remembered 1 year ago when i had it,

i would kneel down and cry every morning cause it hurt so much.

almost got hospitalized.

now it's back. sigh.

[ ♥ ]

/ Vindicated

I am selfish

I am wrong

I am right

I swear I'm right

Swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well

I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

[ & i can totally relate to vindicated right now.]

2008-08-02T07:39:00.000-07:00

'GOODBYE MY ALMOST LOVER/

lit project with nisha, jomains and meliza today.

we went to toys' R us to use their props. hahahahaha.

while we were doing the project, i swear loads of people were staring and laughing at the same time. lol.

hanisha kept saying " it's literature project people!". haha. cause we were over there like the freak show.

i bought my STARBUCKS waterbottle today! woohoo. self-customize (:

then mel went back earlier. hanisha and i decided to waste time doing the paper house thingy.

plus....

BREAKING DAWN IS OUT!

because of that book, i had to go back to vivo the 2nd time. just to buy it. cause i didnt bring enough cash the first time.

tsktsk.

( & a fine frenzy)

/ Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

2008-08-01T05:24:00.001-07:00

[ i feel so dark inside,
please tell me what's wrong./

[it hurts so much inside.
but it hurts even more when i dont know what's hurting.
please tell me wendy. what's hurting so much?
i really wanna know.]

yesterday was a draggg. got detention from miss woo.
just because i made these bunch a people laugh b4 lesson period. argh.
i dont get teachers nowadays.
either they're getting olderOR they're just having manopause. tsktsk.

today. went out with hanisha after school then with damien.
we went to the library. and admire his photograph prints.
then he introduced me to winogrand. hahah. awesome photographer (;

[/after meeting you, i dont know what to say anymore. cause i am scared. but i cant tell what.]

♥

if the same thing is gonna happen again,

i swear. i dont wanna be here anymore.

2008-07-30T04:48:00.000-07:00

[/it skipped a beat]
i could barely breath .

acted like a stone throughout school today.

my brain wasnt working at all. i could barely even remember what i ate for breakfast.

rushed to the dental's at 4. chose to change something new to my braces.

so i did it in RAINBOW colours. the doctor was REALLY good.

he arranged it so nicely and colourful (:

took a taxi back home after that.

then the taxi uncle couldnt stop talking to me.

he was asking me tons of stuff about chinese. haha.

and he even sang to me! hahahaha.

the taxi fare was about 16 bucks and the uncle only charged me 10 bucks.

cause he said i taught him chinese. LOL xD

♥

[/ i dont know why,

you just sat there as we gazed into each other's eyes,

your eyes so warm but yet so cold.

but at the same time, your eyes seemed to be telling me something.

who are you my stranger? why are you even here?]

2008-07-29T01:50:00.000-07:00

[/BREAKING DAWN]

COMING IN 3 DAYS

(:

twilight the movie[:
12.12.08.

2008-07-28T05:27:00.000-07:00

[/never ever after.]

i cant tell you how much i miss you every single day.

u've been gone for 8 years. it's so hard to get you back.

these passing 7 years has been a drag for me.

i'm finally 15 now. but i still cant get u out of my head, my mind.

i miss you. i really want you back.

where are u when i need you the most?

please come back.

mummy, i miss you.

2008-07-26T09:56:00.000-07:00

[/rock down. straight up.]

s.meeting todayyy. nush. bm & ntss (:

effing hyper. everybody had sugar rush. hahaha

after the meeting, we headed to chua chu kang for campfire with taiwan and thailand scouts.

we arrived really early, so davin, jocille, leong wai, hermann, shi hwee and i were messing around taking stupid pictures. hahhaa. everybody kept punching shi hwee. i felt sorrry for that dude.
but i slapped him. so did davin. MUAHAHAHAH. so side each. lol.

haha. holy innocent high was there too. we were the only secondary schools.

the rest were cub scouts.

the campfire was a draggg man. cause the guy who took charge of the song was SOOO slow.

all of us couldnt take it any longer haha.

there were a few ULTRA LAME ------ ( cant be mentioned) scouts guy. laughing at some fucking joke that they made up of davin. damn retards. plus they were ventures. how childish can they get?!

we got back around 10. daniel walked jocille and i instead of heading back to bm. how nice of him (:

right now, leg cramp. arm ache.

damn.

2008-07-24T00:36:00.000-07:00

[/if it ever beats again]
say what they need to say.

damn guangyi and yingrong were spamming me with calls today.
i picked up guangyi's call and he was on the phone talking loads of crap. argh/
5 more days till aaron's birthday. 7 more days till the competition deadline.
bio and english test tmr. maths test friday. higher chinese test thursday.
so much to do, so little time. tsktsk

~~i dont wanna lie no more. but i just cant let you know yu.~~
you're my bestfriend and it'll just make our friendship suffer.
i cant tell you. i really cant.

2008-07-22T01:29:00.000-07:00

[/i'm not coming back. i've done something so terrible/]

/visit/

2008-07-19T01:30:00.000-07:00

[SOCCER DAYYYYY!!/]

today was hell of a day (:
bm played street soccer while nus high and ntss played field soccer.
i was suppose to be a player but luckily someone came and sub into my place [:
loads of 23 eagles came. sec 1 - sec 4. ahaha.
it was fun (:
both ntss and nus high went to the semi finals with acs barker.
awesome game with barker. but they won twice.
but right at the end, something happened ( i wasnt paying attention) then....
NTSS - CHAMPION!! WOOHOO!!
ACS BARKER - 2nd (:
NUSH - 3rd [:

i really miss yuyang. he has been in london for AGES! finally he came back and this was our convo:

[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
harro
risque. says:
what took u so long?
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
umm
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
to come back on?
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
well
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
i was on the cruise for 10 days
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
so it had no msn
risque. says:
nono
risque. says:
as in reply my hello
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
when the hell was that
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
i only woke up like...10 minutes ago
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
i just had toast for breakfast
risque. says:
oh.
risque. says:
huh?
risque. says:
what time is it there?
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
10.23
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
am
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
obviously
risque. says:
ohh. when will u be coming back?
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
well
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
considering your "here" is singapore
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
i'd say.....
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
december
risque. says:
i didnt say HERE.
risque. says:
i just asked when are u going back to PERTH.
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
your "back"
risque. says:
OH PLEASEEEEE
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
you said "coming"
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
so yea, thats what i meant
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
also, im in perth on tuesday
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
school starts on wednesday
risque. says:
ohh. okeyy
risque. says:
so how was the cruise?
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
pretty good
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
but i missed you people
risque. says:
i missed u
risque. says:
WAIT
risque. says:
not MISSED*
risque. says:
i miss you.
risque. says:
hahaha.
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
awwww
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
how cute q
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
XD
risque. says:
cute?!
risque. says:
after all i've said.
risque. says:
u give me one adjective?!
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
ummm
risque. says:
pfft
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
well

SOMETIMES HE IS JUST SO ARGH!!!!

2008-07-18T08:36:00.000-07:00

[/NO ONE UNDERSTANDS/]
it's the sweetest sadness in your eyes.

soccer tmr soccer tmr woohoo (:
firstly, i wanna congratulate damien for getting chosen in the photography competition [: "i'm super duperly proud of you dude *big big big smile*" (:
aiyo. master NAG NAG NAG. "it's due SUNDAY!" hahahhaha.
but it really sounds like a lil girl. hahaha.
hmm. today was the painting competition.
instead of painting the thing, 'some people' enjoy painting my DAMN ARM!
di pern said that the green looks like hulk. hahah.
today was the first day ANYONE has ever heard fan xuan talk so much. HAHAHAHHAH. *grin*
i'm 'GLAD' meliza enjoyed her date todayyyy (: --- i love you <3
although i REALLY WANNA SMACK HIM! argh.

2008-07-15T02:43:00.000-07:00

had tons of fun today. didnt have late classes. so i went out with mel, jo and nisha.

we were cracking up all over the place. in the mrt, lunch, all over the place.

especially the mrt. i was trying to intro them with the funny "mrt jerk"

then when the jerk thingy happened, we were laughing like nobody's business. lol.

i was at tiong bustop when i saw Thane got off the bus.

i was like " wth. is that Thane?!"

seriously i've not seen him ever since pri school.

nadya finally I.Med me today!! WOOHOO! i missed her like shit man.

then i had a convo with hugh (my taiwan cousin).

it was so weird. he was typing in chinese while i was typing in english.

i could BARELY understand.

so i had a convo with shanti.

Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
heya
Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
wat time is it der ???
risque. says:
4.29 pm.
risque. says:
there?
Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
like 10:30 in da mornin its fuck early
Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
excuse my french

risque. says:
wow. no school?
Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
nope
Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
15 sept
Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
an i just woke up an im sittin here in my jammys doin nutin

Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
well der was a huge spider in my room last night so i slept in da bath
risque. says:
omg! in the bathtub? HAHHAA
risque. says:
...
Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
yup
Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
it was quite comfortable
risque. says:
hahhahah
risque. says:
how long did u sleep in that thing?
Bill, Ted n Margii 2gether 4ever!!! Sorayiillaa te kiero wapa!!! says:
da whole night

HAHAHHAHAHAAHAHHA. douche!

2008-07-14T02:11:00.001-07:00

~~i have no idea what's wrong with u ray.~~

~~we used to have loads to talk about last time. but after what happened.~~

~~that STUPID misunderstanding, we cleared it out but still everything changed.~~

~~we hardly give a damn about each other anymore.~~

~~but there's nothing i can do. we're so far apart.~~

~~it's not fair since u're all the way in melbourne and i'm stuck here.~~

~~and i thought that when yuyang went to london, we could talk things out.~~

~~but i guess i was wrong.~~

...see you in december

2008-07-13T01:41:00.000-07:00

i ♥ today...this day (:

gosh. i was out practically the whole day.

we had a cooking test today. it was DAMN fun.

adrian and i were partners cause "ARGH" tianxi didnt come. (as usual) tsktsk

adrian and i took cook 1 first. the fire and smoke was driving us crazyyy.

after we passed cook 1, we immediately chiong to cook 2.

cook 2 was so much fun (:

while i was cooking the bread, dominic came over to "leech" some fire. haha.

then we chatted (kinda) about stuff. hmmm.

around 4+ jocille, adrian, stella, edmund,zl and i chiong to acs for the gangshow (:

we were damn effing late.

then we met up with newtown sec and we saw dunman sec on the way there.

the front part of the gangshow was not bad. then towards the middle it was getting better.

jo and i had to perform and the crowd was WILD!

while we were waiting backstage, the guys kept making us laugh. then some of them would come over and talk to us. hahah.

while we were singing,

omg, it was AWESOME!

bm sec, newtown sec, chij st nicks, tajong katong girls, gan eng seng sec, dunman sec, nus high, hong kah sec and some others stood up and waved and screamed.

some of them ran right up to the front to scream and wave. suddenly in between the song i heard 2 dunman girls scream my chinese name. it was hilarious.

then there was this hong kah sec guy he shouted " YOU GUYS ROCK!"

hahah. jocille and i was smiling all the way. it was amazing. it was like having our own concert.

ahahhahaha. after the gangshow we saw the st nicks girls at the mrt station then they asked for exchange numbers. they are so friendly. my gosh. their dance was SO EFFING CUTE! they are reallyy nice people (: so we made loads of new friends todayy [:

2008-07-11T01:34:00.000-07:00

IT'S TMR!!!

oh gosh. so fast. argh!

thinking about it now gives me the creeps.

starfish didnt come to school today. no one to bully during english lesson. tsktsk

poor guangyi has to write a 3 paragraph essay on the "Founding of Pork"

HAHAHAHAHH. thanks to Mr Leo.

TO JOCILLE: jiayou jiayou! it's TMR already!

2008-07-07T05:51:00.000-07:00

youth dayyyy (: holiday!
but damn no holiday for us. have to sell donation tickets at raffles *sob*
then at jocille and i had to go for rehersal at ACS barker.
we were SO LOST.
rehersal was quite fun. Chij St Nichs, Dunman Sec, Tanjong Katong were there when we arrived.
jocille and i kept forgetting the lyrics when we were on stage. but mostly me =( *opps*
then at the end, they were taking group photos. when it was our turn, the guy next to the camera was squeezing his face with his fingers trying to make us laugh i think. and it was hilarious! haha.

the big dayy 12 july (:
ACS barker GANGSHOW [:
inviting 23 schools. haha.

2008-07-04T02:44:00.000-07:00

SUPPORT EARTHDAY! BURN BEN'S HOUSE!

2008-07-02T07:29:00.000-07:00

school was a whore today. "someone" threw my school blouse in the toilet bowl. that sucked for fuck's sake. i was damn pissed. so i just threw my blouse away.

monday = youth day. i have to sell tickets. go to acs for rehersal. ARGH. no holiday. damndamndamn!

chatted with ray and yu today. they make my dayy so much better (: part of a convo. they were planning to kick "some1" to somewhere. but not to australia because they're there. hmm.

[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
who i shall from now on refer to as "tchib elttil"
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
shit
ohno! says:
hahahhaahaah. little bitch?
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
"hctib elttil"
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
quiter
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
quite*
ohno! says:
that's for a girl isnt it?
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] - ʀ.ay ☆★ - -- says:
just slap the shit outta him

f[αte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
he IS a girl
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] - ʀ.ay ☆★ - -- says:
THANK you
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] - ʀ.ay ☆★ - -- says:
jus abt 2 say tat
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
yw
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
but yes....if only we were there
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
we'd kick ass
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] - ʀ.ay ☆★ - -- says:
prob kick his ass TO
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] - ʀ.ay ☆★ - -- says:
TO aus*
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
nah
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
we don't need his kind here
ohno! says:
hahahhaha.

[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
deport him back to america
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
or....nz
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
or.. tazmania

second part: australians speaking chinese. hahahhahah

[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] - ʀ.ay ☆★ - -- says:
jason who?
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
i have 144 of his songs now
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
the guy who sang Im Yours
ohno! says:
i got caught in class today because i said that word porn
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
ohno! says:
the*
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
what were you talking about?
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] - ʀ.ay ☆★ - -- says:
i called my chinese teache cibai by accident
ohno! says:
HAHAHAHHAHHAH
ohno! says:
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
NICE
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
when scott tries to say lan cha
ohno! says:
ray
ohno! says:
lan cha?
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
he says lan chou
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
oops
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
liang cha8
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
liang cha*
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] ‡Yu‡ says:
he says lan chao
ohno! says:
ohhh. hahahahhahah.
ohno! says:
LOL
[fαte.:†:.fαıтħ] - ʀ.ay ☆★ - -- says:
LOLOL
ohno! says:
imagine scott saying " miss, can i get a cup a lan chao?"

2008-06-30T06:36:00.000-07:00

ohh. today is officially the LAST day of JUNE. and also the last day of the first half of the year.
it's scary to see how time flies. GOSH.
school was a boreee. as usual. hmm. higher chinese class was the worst. the teacher hardly taught anything.
we had rehersal todayyy. all the way to 6pm++.
then during rehersal, something that i didnt expect happened. damnit. and it spoilt my mood for the rest of the rehersal. sorry meliza.
so i talked to ____ about it and it made me feel much better. thanks _____. u're a great friend. ( hmm. u should know who u are. sorry ah. cant mention ur name. it's risky. hahaha )

oh and thanks to HANISHA, now the song shake it by metro station is officially STUCK IN MY HEAD. hahahahha

2008-06-29T06:26:00.000-07:00

wendy is feeling like a douche.

i have no idea how to post about my daily life. cause everyday is a bore.

I got birds in my ears

And a devil on my shoulder

And a phone to the other.

tsktsk

2008-06-27T09:30:00.000-07:00

b-boyz and ballerina rocked the espl theatre like ****!

they were AWESOME!

there were 3 different dance groups.

one of them was korea's number 1 hip hop group, the breakdance crew (: , then 3 beautiful ballerinas (:

it was a love story about a breakdancer falling in love with the beautiful ballerina but then there was this uber rich guy trying to win her heart and he's a hip hop dancing. hahahha.

but in then end the breakdancer and the ballerina was in love (:

in the ending part, they had a encore. so they did freestyle. it was WOAH!

one of the korean guy came down the stage and took the girl's hand to touch his chest hair.

it was damn funny. the korean guy was like seducing the girl.

after the performance we had ice cream at movenpick. yummm xD

then we went to the top and camwhore.

blah blah blah.

2008-06-26T05:05:00.000-07:00

i miss blogger! ( ALL OF A SUDDEN )

2008-06-24T02:39:00.000-07:00

i currently moved (:

but i'll still be here once in a while :]

2008-06-22T01:59:00.001-07:00

paranoid

2008-06-20T01:12:00.000-07:00

the trip was tons of fun.

i visited malacca expatriate school and pay fong high (:

sabrina is now in year 6! the last time she was only in year 2.

wow. time flies.

i wanna go back to M.E.S *sob*

i miss the time when we played catchball and kickball. and make the ball FLYYYY over the fence into the SEA (:

then miss emma myatt will come SCREAMING her head out at us.

hahahahah. i miss the old days.

then i remembered there was once when russell taylor brought a fake tube of blood to school and squeezed some on alex's head and lied to miss emma that alex fell.

miss emma ( almost crying ) : " OMG! i better call ur mom! miss samuel!! call for the ambulance!! someone get the first aid kid!!!"

it was DAMN funny.

i brought tons of bubble gum back. i didnt get caught. luckily.

at the malaysian custom place, the guy that stamped my passport didnt wanna give the passport back to me. he just kept smiling at me. DAMN sick.

2008-06-13T09:39:00.000-07:00

pay fong high is gonna have the annual school fair tmr (:

i miss my old school. tsktsk

anyways. i HAVE to go. no choice. cause if i dont, J3 ren is SO gonna kill me.

hmmm. i'll post pictures when i get back to s'pore.

2008-06-11T07:47:00.000-07:00

hahaha. went to east coast with brian today.

we took a bus to east coast then we rented some skates.

lol. brian was damn funny. the way he moved with the skates and everything.

then i taught him how to skate. then after a while, he was damn pro already (:

best student i've ever had. too bad my phone was in his bag. or else i could try to take some funny pictures of him. lol.

while we were blading, there was this very funny guy just flopped and fell on the ground.

i was gonna laugh cause it was so funny.

but i tried to take it in. finally i couldn take it anymore then i started to laugh

brian " wa. lucky that's not me"

me " hahahahahhahahaha"

seriously the way that guy fell was really funny.

then while i was blading in front, a girl fell next to me

brian " i know u want to laugh"

me " huh? i didnt! i'm not that bad okay. (then suddenly) HAHAHAHAHHAHA"

after that we took a break at mac. then we talked about random things.

hmmm. i managed to get a pic. but i'll post it another time. lazy to post. hahaha.

then brian sent me back to the mrt station. lol. it was damn awkward. haha.

but he has been a good student. although he didnt wanna fall down. *tsk tsk*

but as a master, i'm SO proud of you! u didnt wear any knee or elbow guards and u didnt fall down. lol.

2008-06-10T01:24:00.000-07:00

teaching bladinggg tomorrow.
i cant wait to see brian fall on his butt *grin*
( my bad my bad )
lights and camera ready!!! (:
going out with renaaaaaa soon. i cant wait (:
upload the photos tmr
hhahahahhaha (:

CLUBBING?!

2008-06-07T08:51:00.000-07:00

the first gig. haha. the screamo guy. lol

i just came back from the PUB. YEAH!!!!!!!!!

free admission (: woohoo.

hahahaha. no alcohol though. lol. just went in and jammed along with the music.

the gig was HOT! ( the 2nd one)

lol. qiaoru (sis's good buddy)got me in (:

thank you thank you LOADS (:

i had to wear this special thing around my wrist to sign that i'm underage.

it was illegal for me to get in. cause i'm only 15. AH HA!

but it was FUN (:

so i reached home around 11pm++

the sound of the music is still busting in my ears.

2008-06-06T01:32:00.000-07:00

i've been really fucked up lately. damnit.

there's this whole loada things getting screwed up inside.

i really wanna thank nadya and raymond for being there (:

( yuyang didnt do much *shrugs*) hahaha.

we're officially a groupy (: hahahha.

but ray and yu are all the way in australia *sob sob*

i cant wait for the get-together/sleepover in december.

it'll just be the 4 of us (: woohoo!

PARRRTYYYAAAAYYYY!!!

*to jess and zach*

thanks for calling me all the way from germany and _____ (private) ahha.

on my birthday. even though it was in the middle of the night but thanks alot (:

i love love love u guys. hahahah

2008-06-04T08:04:00.001-07:00

i'm back (: camp was awesome! NUS high , NT and BM.

Day 1 ( 30th may)- my birthday. the whole bus was singing the birthday song for me. lol.
then we reached the campsite. we had to built our own tent. and the bathing toilets were GROSS!
there were bugs EVERYWHERE.

Day 2 ( 31st may)- when we came back late that night, my tent broke and the guy's tents got infested with ants, so we had to rebuild the tents in the middle of the night all the way till midnight. it sucked big time.

Day 3 ( 1st june )- we took the 4 wheel drive!! and cave climbing (: then at night we had the campfire. TIMBERLAKE ROCKS!

Day 4 ( 2nd june)- we all went up to genting highlands. damn fun. it was the girls together with the nus high and new town guys. we sat on the rollercoaster and viking ship and the FREE FALL! we were so damn noisy, we cheered and we screamed like nobody's business. lol. at night, we stayed in the hotel, then zi chun asked me to play in their hotel room together with leongwai and yu sim. so i kept walking in and out of their room like it's my room. just sit inside and watch tv or blow bubbles! then we'll also ran up and down the corridor to annoy the others.

Day 5 ( 3rd june)- Davin's birthday (: they bought two pieces of cake from secret recipe to celebratefor davin and me(belated) . so sweet. we all crammed up in zong yao's hotel room and fooled around inside. then we moved over to davin's room. i was lying on angus's bed then chee guan walked pass and stepped on my leg. ouch. later at night, truman walked over to me while i was slacking by the corridor, so i took the toilet paper and wrapped him like a mummy (: lol.
i wanna thank yakun and xinling for buying the cake (:

the last day was a draggg. everybody was unhappy cause we all dont wanna go back home. we just wanted to stay in the hotel. but there will be another gathering this sunday (:
i'll be posting the photos later (: promise. haha

2008-05-29T00:09:00.000-07:00

GONE for 6 days. back on june 4th (:

wish me luck. hopefully i wont die there. *shrugs*

i'm FINALLY TURNING 15 (:
hahahahah. gosh.
currently listening to : NEWPORT LIVING - cute is what we aim for
♥

2008-05-26T20:42:00.000-07:00

to: _______ (u'll know who u are)

i have absolutely NO idea what i'm typing right now but my heart is dying to have these words out. cause i cant keep things in any longer.

all i wanna say is..thank you. thank you for everything.

even though things didnt work out well for us. but the memories are still there.

u make me really happy. and i wanna thank u for that (:

i was really glad when i found that there's someone out there that has the same interest as me.

museums-history, extreme rides, tennis and HAYDEN PANETTIERE(:

haha. and i'm really sorry for calling you a bastard that day. i didnt mean a word i said.

i was just really angry and shocked. cause i didnt expect such a thing to happen.

well, there's a 99% chance that u're probably trying to forget about me right now.

but i just wanna say, even our love is gone, our friendship is sinking but

HAYDEN WILL always BE HOT (:

ps: twinkle twinkle ur mom will always be the funniest (:

LOL xD

thank you for everything.

and no matter what happens, u'll always be a good friend (:

2008-05-22T06:02:00.000-07:00

i had LOADS of fun today (:
water water and more water. LOL.

watched a movie together with hanisha.
made of honour (:
the whole cinema only had the 2 of us with this other woman.
we laughed at the funny parts like nobody's business.
then we took off our shoes and slack and slump on the chair.
did loads of other stupid things as well.

after that, i met up with aaron. damn nervous.
we've not seen each other for 6 years already. very awkward. lol.
but the conversations were nice (: hahah.
he's still the old aaron i used to know in pri 3.
i've been having loads of problems lately and he's always there to comfort and cheer me up. thanks LOADS aaron (:
u are a great great friend. [:

2008-05-21T04:52:00.000-07:00

i dont know what u want me to say or what u want me to do.

things have been so complicated.

i just want us to talk things out and make things clear between us.
cause going on like this is killing me. seriously.
please. i beg u.
lets just talk things through.

please just tell me the truth.

u've kept me waiting for so long.

i cant wait forever.

the pain is unbearable.

it hurts so bad.

2008-05-20T00:46:00.000-07:00

holidays are driving me crazyyyy.
i've got NOTHING to do at all. *tsk*

ARGH!! i lost to di pern in maths people!!
tmr i'll be stepping INTO that BIG BLACK rubbish bin.
just hope that the cleaner wont shout at me like last time. lol.

i love doing dares (:
i complete EVERY single one. short saying: " i love doing stupid things"
today ahmala dared me to step into the big rubbish bin. and i did it!!! yeah me (:
hahahahahah. but it was gross. i felt something stuck to my shoe.

i'm so damn bored now that i could lick my WHOLE house.
and suck all the dust. MERCY! i'm effing bored.
hmmm. maybe i should do something extreme again.
the last time i did that, i twisted my wrist.
erm. maybe i'll try breaking my leg this time... *serious grin*

2008-05-17T01:26:00.001-07:00

THERE ZACH! i post the damn pictures happy now?

gosh. i'll upload all your unglam photos the NEXT TIME. *grin*

especially the one with the bunny. hahahahaha. i love that one (:

i had meeting this morning at new town sec. gosh. i was damn effing tired.

felt like sleeping through the whole thing. but there's so much to do.*sob*

going over to yuxin's house tonight (: woohoo!

cant wait. sure to camwhore like mad. haha.

tmr is MOVIE DAY (:

but there's so many things to do tmr.

hahaha. today when i was waiting for the bus. i heard these 2 woman talking behind me

1st woman: "eh. that girl ah. she doesnt look chinese leh."

2nd woman: " ya loh. maybe her father or her mother is angmo"

1st woman: " that's what i think as well. eh. ask her lah"

2nd woman: " ok lah ok lah"

then she walked over to me.

2nd woman: " u are mixed blood ah?"

me: " hahaha. yeah a bit."

2nd woman: "oh icic. thank u ah"

walau. i was damn pai say. i cannot stand these type of people. *tsk*

i tried the flip up board today..

nearly sprained my ankle. at least i didnt break my ankle like emma marjan. poor her.

her school damn fun lah. SAS-singapore american school.

but alex told me that they need to do a lot of running. hahaha. so "lucky"

i'm glad to have friends there (:

this stupid shot. damn it.
zach u're SO gonna pay for this.

2008-05-16T00:32:00.000-07:00

gosh. realised how fast time flies.

i remembered how lalida, nadya, shanti and i used to sit at the bike shed and talk about everything. and then claudia would come and annoy us. so we'd scare her away. damn funny.

i miss mes so effing much. especially MISS EMMA!!!!

man! wish u all the best in spain or argentina? (with hamish)

omg. i miss MES so effing much!!

fave school EVER!

the world map linked to where we came from (:

awwww. isnt kosti just the cutest (:

my dear shanti (:

performance night (:

word play activity (:

sitting there. red hat= russel (lindsay's brother), next is kosti,

black hat=otto (: then alex peng and jack and shinji (:

year 2 performance.

our playground.

standing right infront is sabrina etc etc.

2008-05-14T09:10:00.000-07:00

cant wait till 27 june (:

going to esplanade to watch the b-boyz&ballerina. lol

i've been so stressed out lately. even though exams are over. *tsk*

it's time for me to let go. cause hanging on waiting will do me no good at all.

the truth is, i dont mind waiting. but could u at least tell me what's going on in ur mind?

i KNOW u're keeping something from me.

but it's not my problem anymore. since u want it this way. then fine. u can have it ur way (:

this is exactly what i feel right now (:

lyrics from over it-katherine mcphee

Your eyes... I'm over it.

You're smile... I'm over it.

Realized... I'm over it, I'm over it, I'm over...
Wanting you to be wanting me.

No, that ain't no way to be.

How I feel. Read my lips.

Because I'm so over... (I'm sorry)
Moving on It is my time.

You never were a friend of mine. [ok lah. this part not true.u're still my friend]

Hurt at first a little bit

But now I'm so over

So over it. I'm so over it...

2008-05-13T07:19:00.000-07:00

when will things turn back to the way it was?

i want the old you back.

why are u ignoring me all the time? we promised to still be friends.

u LIED to me.

so DONT EVER make empty promises

( you know freaking well who u are)

2008-05-12T12:14:00.000-07:00

i'm trying to BREATH!!!!!!!!!! for god's sake.

i can hardly catch my breath when i think about u. cause that's how much i STILL love u. *sob*

just tell me.

WHAT DO U WANT ME TO DO RIGHT NOW?

u hardly sms me anymore. u dont even give a damn call. and i guess u've blocked me on msn as well. what's the point of doing this to me? u'll just hurt me even more.

DONT U UNDERSTAND?!

*I miss u really bad. i miss ur smile. ur voice. ur concern and ur patience.*

2008-05-10T06:28:00.000-07:00

AS THE TIME GOES BY,

PART OF ME STARTS FALLING APART.

HOW MUCH LONGER DO I HAVE TO WAIT?

I'MSORRY =(

2008-05-08T00:14:00.000-07:00

today is the shittest day of my life. woke up at 4.30am to study geo. cause after what happened last night, i was damn screwed up. i even cried myself to sleep.

so i tried studying this morning but i ended up tearing all over my textbook. i couldnt help it.

then i did something UBER STUPID. i slit myself on the arm. over and over.

but it doesnt hurt as much as how my heart hurts now.

i had to put a bandage around my arm to stop the blood and also to cover it so that meliza and the others wont see. cause if they do, i know they'll cry to see me in a state like this.

this is probably the STUPID-EST thing i've ever done to myself.

i slammed my file at the railing this morning. damn loud until the people next door looked over. haha. then ahmala had to calm me down. then as soon as hanisha and madeline and a few others saw me, they hugged me and gave me kisses and they tried to cheer me up (thanks guys)

but as soon as they saw my cuts, i swear they all went utterly nuts. they freaked out cause they've never seen me like that b4 (neither have i)

after school. meliza and i talked for a while in the canteen. then suddenly i thought about him and started crying. meliza came over and hugged me really tight. she was so damn worried about me. b4 i left she made me promise her that i wont cut myself anymore. but i doubt it.

i cant control myself. my heart hurts so much.

i'm really upset. but i'm not mad at u. i wont hate u either.

i'll give u time. but i cant wait forever.

i ♥ u. i really do.

2008-05-06T04:35:00.000-07:00

went to the library today to MUG! together with wenyi,trica,ahmala,valerie and doreen. then later aiin came along.
in the library like siao loh. laugh and laugh and laugh damn loud.
so trica and i moved further and further. then suddenly, they started throwing pads around. omg. really went crazy. then a tampon. then i saw ahmala trying to stuff it in doreen's mouth. hahah. poor doreen. crazyyyy day. lol

\/[Aaron]\/ says:
gd luk for yur papers, gd luck with him, and dont wry too much about whether he is true towards u. because only time will tell and just enjoy it for now.
\/[Aaron]\/ says:
but i hope he really really really liikes u for who u r!

good friends ever since primary school. really nice person. (:
maybe i should listen to him.
i should, maybe.
?

2008-05-05T00:56:00.000-07:00

interhouse class basketball competition. haha.
i sucked! i just helped to pass the ball for a bit and stuff but i was seriously lazy to move.
there was a part where ryan passed me the ball and didnt know it was on my hands and every1 was charging towards me. so i said "opps" and looked damn innocent. everybody started laughing. lol
maths lesson: maths quiz~~
hanisha: miss woo! can i use pencil?
miss woo: whatever.
after 30 seconds
wendy: miss woo! can i use chalk? charcoal can?
damn stupid lah. loads of people laughed as well. lol
i guess i'm in a stupid mood today. (:
i've been kinda lost lately...
running around and around in the same damn square. but never finding a way out.
even though i have u, but i still feel lost.
give me some time ok? that's all i need. patience is all i can ask for.
thank u (:
i love u (and u know who u are) haha (:

2008-05-03T06:44:00.000-07:00

YOU MAKE ME HAPPYYY (:

thank you (:

2008-05-02T07:39:00.000-07:00

eng and higher chinese paper 1 today (:
4 damn bloody essays to write. when i tried holding the pen again, my hand couldnt take it anymore. lol
i was forced to drink the chicken essent thingy this morning.
i almost vomited. it tasted HORRIBLE! damnit. my sis say that good things i dont eat.
but i dont even eat shark fin. personal reasons lah. (:
during exam everybody has to put their hp and wallets next to the cupboard beside me.
then suddenly during the chinese paper, someone's phone vibrate. but vibrate damn loud.
i tried finding which phone but i failed. haha. too many plus the teacher was looking at me. =(
then she wrote on the board
time: 12.25 pon (porn) it was suppose to be "pm"
i was giggling all the wayyy.
then edna was showing a bunch of funny signs that she wrote. so i giggled even more lah.
i've been smsing quite a lot lately (: and i'm happy. haha
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY (:

2008-05-01T00:39:00.000-07:00

MAY! time flies. *tsk*
another 30 day and it'll be my BIRTHDAY!!!
hurray. tmr i'll be having two fucking papers. damn!
english and high chinese. compo.
then it'll be saturday! woohoo! cant wait to sleep in. (:
then the next paper is gonna be on wed. so planty of time to mug. lol
cant wait for the malaysia trip (:
*i dont want girlguides to go* please.
then we can get the best treatment =) *grin*

2008-04-30T01:42:00.000-07:00

MUGGING!!!!!
man there's just so much to study so little time.
but yet i'm here blogging *tsk tsk*
exam starts on fridayyy. english and high chinese paper 1.
it's my BIG mistake taking higher chinese. cause THAT teacher told me to. darn it.
but i better start mugging hard for the other subjects. *tsk*
jiayou jiayou!!

2008-04-27T04:03:00.000-07:00

i've been studying for the weekend. but NOTHING seem to get into my brain.
eat one whole bowl of popcorn already. but still nothing. empty.
well another is cause i've been feeling really bad as well.
i'm STILL GUILTY!!!!! damn it damn it. i feel SO effing bad. *sob*
i wrote more then a 100 times of " i'm really sorry" in my notebook everyday. adding it up.
and it still doesnt change the way i feel. *sob sob*

I AM SOOOOO SORRYYY!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-24T02:48:00.001-07:00

i've been REALLY depressed lately. nothing seems to change.
but still the talking gets there at certain times, if u get what i mean.
malaysia trip in may/june. damn excited. 6 days 5 nights. woohoo!
but all guys leh. acs(i), acs barker, new town, nus high and i think ri.
mostly i think there will be tons of guys. girls i'm not really sure. depends.
but at least stella and a few others are going.
but then if so many boys and so LITTLE girls is gonna be quite interesting cause then the girls all get the better treatment and always get to go first. hahahahaah. *big smile*
cant wait (:
but now mid years are WAY important. have to start mugging BIG TIME.
have to start learning dutch as well. damnit. out of all the ancestors, mine just HAD to be dutch. damndamndamn.

2008-04-22T06:24:00.000-07:00

i know u wouldnt be reading this blog,
so i'm taking my time to write down everything.
that friday when i blamed u, i didnt mean a thing at all, and when i said i hate u, i only said it out of anger. i really didnt mean it. i am really really really sorry.
i didnt mean to hurt ur ego.
i really miss the old days where we used to fool around and stuff. and i really want the old days back. i'm really sorry. and i hope u'll forgive me.
please forgive me soon. and i hope that i can get the old ______ back.
i miss everything.
*sob*

forgive me please. i beg u.
*sob*

2008-04-20T01:08:00.000-07:00

bowling competition (:

all the guys kept winning. bull shit.

sji, barker then sji then barker.

then later on they told us that they missed out the ladies catagory.

our school got the whole thing cause only we had girls in our team.

3rd stella, 2nd me, 1st amanda.

that guy said that we can go to the youth olympics already. lol

these few days are a bit strange.

_____ , i'm soooo sorry for swearing and blaming u.

it's just so unlike me. but i said sorry. seriously i did.

u just ignored me. how nice eh?

i made a fool out of myself. stupid me.

2008-04-18T05:41:00.000-07:00

went out together with yuyang and his mom.

met at borders again. then his mom took us to granny's house.

then we went to holland v and had tea at foster.

then yuyang took me to have haagen daz (:

*yum yum*

then later aunty took yuyang back to goodwood and sent me to newton mrt.

she's really nice. we had some really great convesations (:

i cried in school today. so NOT like me.

suddenly just missed mum. all that _____ fault. him and his BIG mouth.

2008-04-17T07:41:00.000-07:00

had a great time today

met up with yuyang at wheelock

then we went lido for a while and then to bugis then back to lido.

so he took me to visit mama ong , aunty may and uncle at goodwood's hotel.

he could open his own room's door at all so uncle had to open it for us.

chit chat with them then they told him to bring me down for tea.

but we went to explore the place instead. and somehow we ended up at the office place. *opps*

then we started fooling around the lobby like lil kids. piggy back ride and we played with the hotel's things. then some bastard said that while we're playing we look really romantic. like WTFuck! damn it. yuyang's only my best buddy nothing more. plus he already has a gf.

sweet sweet japanese spring. hahah.

then went back to the rooms and chat some more with uncle and aunty may. they're really nice.

and mama ong told me that whenever i'm in malacca, i can go visit her. (:

then went back home around 7 plus.

while i was boarding 195, this gan eng seng guy cut the Q and squeezed right infront of me. then he turned around and looked at me then he squeezed into the other Q and let me go first instead. so nice loh. lol (:

(photos another day)

2008-04-16T06:01:00.000-07:00

effing tired today

class photo, cca photo, health check.

class photo was fun. especially the fun shot. i made this sign saying i'm with retards pointing 2 arrows sideways, but mrs choy saw so she forbidded it.

then i made another saying i'm with genius. (:

late for maths lesson today. so we got detention. haha but in the end still dont have.

maths lesson hazim went crazy. he was talking to himself with hazim no.1 and hazim no.2

hazim no.1 is the fierce one. then hazim no.2 is the sissy one. damn freaky.

going raffles tmr with my dear buddy (:

back to the antique shop again. hahaha.

2008-04-14T02:34:00.000-07:00

tags replies

zoe: thanks. i'm good

jess: haha. u'll get a hang out of it. that chalet thing. i'm not sure. which chalet is it?

zach: my gosh zach. would u do me a favour and ask him to fuck off?

2008-04-14T02:11:00.000-07:00

hmmm it's 14 already. fast.

yuyang's visiting from australia soon. probably get to see alex as well.

oh well.

few days ago, suddenly i started thinking about mummy. cried damn a lot on sat.

i miss her so much. why did she have to be gone just like that?

it's all that stupid doctor's fault. what kinda fucking doctor is that? giving the patient the wrong medicine. it's ALL his fault that my mom died.

that was why i promised myself if i ever see him again, i'll kill him. 1 for 1. it's only fair.

take revenge for mummy. *sob*

well now whenever i sit on 195 and pass by that certain bus stop, i just wanna bang my head on the chair. omg. how can i just miss the chance that day? i'm seriously stupid. should've followed my instincts that day. damn it.

*arg*

2008-04-10T03:39:00.000-07:00

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

damn it! why is life so unfair!

just HAD to see him there. damn damn damn.

3 weeks already. cant u at least pity me for a bit?

unfair unfair totally unfair!

damn depressed right now. bullshit.

twisted my wrist yesterday while roller blading. tried to do some stupid stuff.

so i had to go to school today with a bandage round my wrist.

and quite a lot of people actually thought that i slit my wrist. wth?

i would never repeat NEVER do something stupid like that.

all i do is just shout at some poor innocent person.

but they're nice to let me shout at them (:

some even let me punch them.

*tskkkkkk*

2008-04-08T00:13:00.000-07:00

yesterday

after school we went to the nursing home again.

sing and sing and sing for the people.

all diff songs. some sang love story, how to save a life, pretty boy, etc etc.

while the singing went on, hanisha and i were going hyper. we danced, screamed and did lots of stupid things.

at the end, a few of us stayed back to feed the elderlys.

today

music class was stupid. we had to create some dance moves to a song.

and hanisha started dancing, then she pulled ahmala to be her partner. then me.

so we all went high.

ahmala wanted to try out the turning thingy so hanisha ahmala and i held hands and spin like hell. i fell backwards on my butt. and slide quite a long distance backwards

almost the whole class was watching. damn

it was fun. so i went again. (:

wenyi's turn with ahmala was the funniest.

well getting hurt is no biggy for me. i fall and break and this and that all the time.

i've been getting really fucked up recently. confuse and totally not understanding wat is going on at all. especially towards myself.

damnitdamnitdamnitdamnitdamnitdamnit.

2008-04-05T11:38:00.000-07:00

Paula's backkkk

46 year old still looking good (:

2008-04-04T21:05:00.000-07:00

dunno what schoool this is.

so damn neat.

this ACS guy acting as the popular cheerleader.

gangshow rocked hard last night.
the theme was scary movie at ACS(i)
we had to walk in this haunted thing and behind these black plastic bags, there were guys popping out to scare us. so i accidentally whack one. opps.
there were about 7 ++ school.
st marg, us, new town, ri, rjc, acs, st nic, asu english high, rusa, and i think more.
damn fun. totally didnt regret going.
we were all screaming like retard. especially acs or ri.
they shouted damn loud. the girlguides are like screaming machines. they were all very high.
while i was in the toilet there were a 3 st marg girls talking to me. while i was IN the toilet!
they wanted to wait for me. (:
haha...a way to make friends. but they were very nice people.
we ended about 10 something. then went back by mrt.
by that time my throat was hurting damn a lot. scream and shouted too much already.
rock on (:

2008-04-04T01:18:00.000-07:00

fridayyyy

that means staying lateeee at night and sleep lateeee the next morning (:

cant wait to just lie down and sleep like i'm dead

campfireee later at ACS(i)

today. just today. _____ called me ______

and i m so upset. cause it really hurt. but then HE doesnt know that.

normally i just dont give a damn but this time i have no idea why it turned out like that.

i emo-ed for the whole day. then hannisha kissed me on the cheek to cheer me up (:

THANKS BABE ILY!!!

maths lesson was hyper. i was trying to stick signs on ppls backs. then laugh a lot.

then i got it back at myself. cause dipern and fizal hook one on my bag.

they r soooooooooo gonna get it back!

really bored right now. should i go skate boarding again? boreeeeee

i wanna go to somerset skating park!

skate my arss out. i keep falling. and my knees are now damn hurt.

so NOT like a girl loh. (:

chatted with lalida jz now. miss her sooo damn much.

sadly she's so far away.

she's having real biig problems with her___ now.

so i'm trying my best to help her all i can.

right now..legs hanging. arms breaking.

get what i mean? haha

2008-04-02T03:00:00.000-07:00

fichu ennuyé aujourd'hui.

il n'y a rien pour faire du tout!

cca a fini vraiment tôt aujourd'hui la cause ils ont la pratique speechday.

mais je dont. (:

hahahaje suis tout à fait désespéré récemment. haha

marcus a finalement dit désolé.

et il m'a dit qu'il n'est l'enseignement plus. horrible

donc j'ai décidé de voyager par la poste avec le français. haha

je vais commencer à apprendre l'espagnol bientôt.

voulez juste apprendre des charges de langues

wont that be GREAT?

2008-03-31T07:10:00.000-07:00

DA DE DUM DE DUM

i'm in a DAMNNNN good mood today.

mainly still trying to forget about THAT FUCKING PERSON!

todayy hannisha and i made out a song specially for Di Pern.

" i'm a liitle DI pot short and ____

here is my man boobs and here is my crack,

when the waters boiling hear me shout!

oh i'm steaming, WHAT THE FUCK. "

it was damn retard. we were going around singing it out loud.

cant wait till the end of the year.

yuyang's gonna have a get together in malacca.

since he went to australia i've not seen him for a longggg time.

gonna meet raymond as well. (:

nadya might be coming. i'm pleading for lalida to come back from uae.

and hopefully heta and otto might be able to come back from finland. (:

i wonder if julien is back from switzerland? hmmm. he's DAMN gay (: haha

i miss kimberly so DAMNNN much. gosh. i only have friends all over but not much here.

blame it on daddy. it was his idea to take me to malacca for 5 years. i totally regret going there.

damn it damn it.

*tsk tsk*

2008-03-30T00:50:00.000-07:00

FUCKER!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!

damn it marcus! all u can do is just tell me the damn truth!

who knows if u're lying or not? damn it damn it damn it!!!

*ARGGGGG*

i'm so freaking pissed with u right now! FUCK YOU!

it was my fault that i rejected u. but it's only because i've only met u once.

then u..called me ____ it's FUCKING gross. cause i'm NOT yours.

CANT U JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?????

stupid double timer! what kinda fucking guy are u?

*AHHHHH*

i'm gonna swear the WHOLE way. cant take it anymore!!!!